Ugh...failing already

So Yesterday I was of to a good start, I ate a banana and coffee for breakfast, then a spinach salad for lunch and another banana and a cup of sugar free apple sauce for a snack. Then a friend gave me a Milkyway cause she pressed the wrong button on the vending machine and it all started to go downhill. I ate Gumbo for dinner (prepared by my lovely roommate and her boyfriend and they made enough to feed the entire group of army people stationed at the fort up the road), and then instead of going for the run I planned I decided to watch 7 pounds with them, which is an okay movie. I know there are lot of people out there that truly love it, but really? I was (sorry for the spoiler here) rooting for the guy to go ahead and kill himself from about 30 minutes in. However it was pretty cool that every single bit of the movie had a purpose. There were no side plots no random little 30 second bits of dancing cause they need to kill tape. Anyway, during the movie we ate chips and salsa, and I had a crackers with cheese (cheese is my weakness) and destroyed the good I had done thus far in the day. This put me up to aproximately 1,590 calories, and my goal for days (that I dont work out is about 1,100 calories)

Today isnt of to a great start either, since I woke up to late to go running, and I have to go to an event straight afterwork and there will be cupcakes and cake there, as well as soda. And I have already eatten Pizza today. But I couldnt resist, my boss wanted to buy lunch and that means pizza. so I am 2 slices of peperoni pizza and a piece of toast with penut butter and banana on it into the day. (already up to 1,329 calories). Well I guess everyone has to start somewhere. And I just have to promise to myself that I will do better tomorrow.

Cant Do it Alone

I am not exactly one hundred precent sure how I should begin this. I guess I am just going to jump out there and say what this is for. I am over weight. I dont know exactly how much I weigh, but I do know that I am 5'4" and I wear a size 16 pants. I have gained a dress size a year since I graduated from college and moved away from home, and I wasnt exactly skinny in college. I am now to the point where I think a doctor would clasify me as obease and thats a really depressing fact. I think today I hit rock bottom, when my best friend was looking at pictures I posted from a weekend event on facebook and she sent me a message (we havnt seen each other in a year cause she lives in Germany) saying she was worried about me cause of how much weight I have gained. And its true, and it depresses me. But I have never had the courage to do something about it. Because if I dont try, then I cant fail. Plus dieting and exercizing is hard, and its hard to do alone, (not to mention expensive, which is another reason why I have not been as dilagent as I should be). Yet at the same time I know I am not alone, I know there are plenty of people in the same or well sameish situation as I am. So I decided, to start a blog, with one purpose in mind. To loose weight, to keep myself accountable to loosing weight, and to hopefully inspire other people to go out and get healty as well. And I am trying to get healty, not to get to a size 2 and be anerexic, but to be healty.